I will not show you that I care if you don't care about me. I'm a good actor, remember?

I will not ask what's wrong, if you fail to care when I'm down.

I will not explain what's wrong on my own. Why should I?

I will not call if you don't call me. Ever.

I will not make things easy on you.

I will not smile and be nice if I don't want to.

I will smile and be nice, and I will be happy or will appear to be if I will want to.

I will not show you it hurts.

I will not explain what hurts if it is stupid.

I will not explain what hurts if it will only fill your ego more.

I will explain if it will not embarass me and if you genuinely care.

I will not crawl after you. Nobody deserves that.

I will not beg you to listen to me.

I will not pretend that I'm not mad.

I will pretend it's ok if it will suit me. I will be damn good at it.

I will expect you to make the first move. I have too many times before.

I will not expect you to understand this. Nor will I expect you to know it's about you.

I do not expect you to even read it.

I do not expect you to give it a moment's thought if you do.

I do not expect for things to be like they were.

I do not expect you to call me unless you need something from me anymore. Those days are gone, huh?

I expect that if you do read it, get it and care that wou will be quite insulted.

I will pretend I don't enjoy in it.

I will pretend that's not the point.

I will pretend it was about somebody else.

I don't expect to knock some sense into you.

I don't expect you want sense to be knocked into you.

But don't expect me to show you I care.

I hate mornings.

I, very immaturely, hate school.
It's sooooo noisy, there's soooo many people, everybody keeps bumping into me and poking me and talking to me and telling me stuff... grrrr. Just leave me alone.

I think I promised to go to a party this weekend.

I already skipped one I "shouldn't" have. Shouldn't as in... I like the people there and I never get to see them. I think I missed a concert by those people. Again.


God I hate mornings.

I have a question.

My sister and I were watching a cartoon today, the Prince of Egypt. It tells the story of Moses and there is a scene in it, where he transforms the Nile into a river of blood.

Now here's the question...

What was the blood type?

All I can think about lately is nonsense. =/

     "Some people run away from themselves
     by escaping into the crowd;
     others run away from the crowd
     by escaping into themselves."

Mardy Grothe

Okiedokie. Time to post. A bit :)

I got my tongue pierced Friday. - YAY! :)) I've wanted it for a while now, but I could never gather the courage and the cash at the same time... This time I dragged my cousin with me so I wouldn't run out of the studio... And I LOVE IT! And yesterday, I actually managed to eat a chicken thigh thingie XD - Solid foods were a problem.

I made a David Bowie pumpkin. It doesn't look much like David Bowie buuuuuuuut... it's the thought that counts. ;)

My ratties are turning nice! Cutiepies <3

I did absolutely NOTHING these holidays... Well, I probed a lot of cows and zapped some aliens on gaiaonline.com XD - Like I said, nothing. :P

Happy Samhain! (If there's any neo-pagans out there.)

I can't wait for Shrove! (Pust)

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Korpiklaani :D

Just got home. 8 am. Haven't slept. Soft seats on trains are <3...
Korpiklaani are <3
Coffee is <3

I have to study... after I get up.

Korpiklaani :D

Ok... it's been a while. My whole world turned upside down and back the other way again in the meantime. Lately I don't really find the time or the interest to post on forums, hang around on MSN and so on. I'm no longer bored in school. 3rd year rocks ;)(More than the 2nd for the 2nd time anyway) ... My class is... Still the same. I saved myself the trouble of deciding if I like them or not by deciding I'm just around them because that's where the school put me. Saves a lot of time. *shrugs* What can you do, it's not my old class.

Also... BLIND GUARDIAN TOMORROW!!! WOOOHOOO!!!
Can't wait. Been waiting for the past 5 years or so. OMG! :D The last day is always the hardest. And the hour before the gig is just pure torture.

I'm reading Herman Hesse. *thumbs up* For a spiritual/philosophical book that Siddharta is, it's amazingly easy to read. Nothing like Nietzche... o.0 The Picture of Dorian Gray is just pure X-tasy. I adore Oscar Wilde. Oscar Wilde, Arto Paasilinna, J.R.r. Tolkien, Umberto Eco, Paulo Coelho, Terry Pratchett, Douglas Adams... I adore.

BLIND GUARDIAN TOMORROW!!!

I hope tomorrow will be the most amaznig day ever. EVER.

Yep yep :)

Also, Korpiklaani in Maribor on the 21st of Oct. Finnish folk partyyyyyyyy... Wooohoo! :D